I'm a senior citizen

I finally, finally gathered the courage to take an aerobics class at the gym. I was super nervous. I checked out the schedule and decided to try out Easy Fit. Seemed like a good idea. As I'm waiting for the class to start, I notice that I'm the youngest...by at least 20 years. I shrug it off, it is morning, maybe it's just that time of day? Right???

Yeah, not so much. On my way out, I read the description of the class (which is not on my schedule) and the words 50+ put everything into perspective. I didn't belong there! In my defense, it also said beginners, which I am, but still, I felt out of place.

Leave it to me to pick a senior's aerobics class for my first time. At least I went, right?

I'm back

I quit my blog. I figured I was pretty boring and had nothing interesting to say.
Now I'm back because I realized I was blogging for all the wrong reasons. This blog is for me. It's to chronicle my life.
I feel like I've lost my identity to being a mommy. My whole life revolves around Jake. While, Jake is by far the most important element of my life right now, he's not the only part that matters. Nick, my fiance, deserves my attention and love. I deserve time to myself as well.

We've all heard the old saying: "Nine months on, nine months off." Yes, that's the dreaded baby weight. Now, I had quite a bit of extra padding before the baby weight, but I'll concentrate on the baby weight for now. Jake will be nine months in three days. That's 3 days!! Sadly, unless I can lose 34 pounds in three days, I won't be back to my prepregnancy self.

My prepregnancy weight is 240lbs.
I weighed myself for the first time in months this morning. The damage: 274

My first goal: I need to lose 34 pounds.
Timeframe: A healthy weightloss is two pounds per week. That's 17 weeks to lose 34 pounds. However, Jake's 1st birthday is in 15 weeks.
My goal is to lose 34 pounds by June 30th 2010.

How am I going to achieve my goal?
I bit the bullet and joined a gym yesterday. More about that later.

So today, I made the first step.

Will I stumble? Probably.
Is this important? Definitely.
Can I do it? Yes. I have to. I have to be healthy.

I need to start being accountable.

Ooohhh...two post in one day. I'm starting a trend that will be hard to keep up!

Part of the focus of my blog will be my battle to lose weight. I've struggled with my weight since I was in high school. When I left home for university, I gained a freshman 30, instead of a freshman 15. I slowly kept gaining until I sank into depression and gained 50 pounds in a year. I got my butt to the gym and lost 60 pounds with the help of a personal trainer.

Now, since being pregnant, I weigh about the same as I did at my all time high. It really hit when I went shopping for clothes tonight. I can't remember the last time I bought sizes in the 20s. It's time to make serious changes in my lifestyle, starting with my eating habits.

I will be healthy and show a good example for my son. It's starts tonight.
I haven't weighed myself in a couple of months. I'll step on the scale tonight and be accountable for that number.

Time to start a new leaf.